The Value of Sober Treats

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Today was the day that I used the last drop of my luxurious $60 bottle of body wash.

I knew this day would come, eventually.

Not to be dramatic about it, but it was the end of an era.

I remember when I bought it.

I was newly sober and wanting to treat myself to something besides wine.

I was looking for new ways to reward myself, for my new sobriety.

I was trying to get onboard with healthy living, while managing the relentless cravings for alcohol.

The day I purchased this body wash, I stood in the fancy spa and debated with myself. I was negotiating the value of this special, expensive, luxury item.

I was not used to spending $60 on soap.

I typically buy the generic body bars in bulk from Costco.

For special showers, I use travel size bath condiments from previous hotel stays. Doesn’t everyone?

Was this body wash really worth $60?

How could I justify spending money on something that was going down the drain.

Literally, going down the drain.

It wasn’t that I couldn’t afford it.

I could afford it.