The Problem with Sobriety

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It has taken me a long time to admit this, I was addicted to alcohol.

To my inner circle, my addiction looked like drinking too much, too often.

Getting drunk too fast.

Passing out too quickly.

Getting sloppy, slurry, while the people around me were just starting a buzz.

To me, my addiction looked like disappointment.

An uncontrollable downward spiral that picked up velocity each time it turned a corner.

It was a dirty secret to be hidden away.

A spill to be cleaned up quickly, before it became a stain.

To most people, my addiction looked like someone who never drank too much.

Someone who had it all together, someone who could moderate.

I drank around other people and I also drank alone.

Alcohol is an addictive substance that creates dependence and changes the brain.

I didn’t see myself as an addicted person, until after I got out of it.

I think this is true for most people.

I was a loud happy drunk at times.

I was sad, confused, and angry while drunk too.