Coping with Grief without Alcohol

Something has been brewing inside me and it bubbled over this weekend.

It started with listening to a song really loud in the car by myself. It struck a chord, almost literally.

I felt something in the music and started singing along. My singing took a turn and morphed into screaming which ended up with full on sobbing. Sing/scream/sobbing. Release. I spent the next two hours hiking in the woods talking to the trees, crying at the sky, and trying to make sense of my complex emotions.

I didn’t realize I had been avoiding this meltdown for weeks. I ignored the signals and was now at the boiling over point. Looking back, there were some clues but I didn’t see them at the time. As a sober person, I have worked really hard to “check myself before I wreck myself”, but this one snuck up on me.

In hindsight, I could see that my recent behavior in hustle, avoidance, distraction, and achievement were my own protection from what I was actually feeling. I didn’t know that at the time. All the self awareness, all the self help books, all the podcasts, all the healing, and yet the denial of the inner brew is strong. Such a good plug for coaching support right here. Wink. Schedule Your Complimentary Call

Everyone in the world has a coat of armor they wear to protect themselves from pain. Alcohol…