Alcohol is No Longer a Temptation

There was a moment this weekend where I picked up a glass of whiskey,

so I could wash the table underneath so we could play cards after dinner.

I put my nose in and smelled it.

It smelled so good!!!

It gave me a warm, boozy, fuzzy feeling just to sniff it.

I knew I would love the burn going down my throat.

Whiskey wasn’t my drink of choice, but I always did like it.

Did I want a sip of whiskey?

Maybe?

Did I want that happy burn and fuzzy buzz to come over me?

Yes, I definitely did.

I know now what that would mean for me.

Alcohol is a big head game.

I am so glad to not be playing anymore.

Ultimately, I don’t want what alcohol brings.

For me, alcohol brings disappointment, dependence/addiction, hangovers, and shame.

It hijacks my brain into a one track mind with only one thought — drink now.

It clouds everything that is beautiful and free about me.

It makes me anxious, and depressed.